Paradise of Love - by 2F

 

    

                                                                 by Fer                                                                        by Far

 

These two pictures are taken separately by me and Fer. We combine them together to make them a set.

We call this set "Paradise of Love" because it gives us the feeling of peaceful life. The wooden donkey and teddy bear

represent a couple living together happily. The heart in between with the word "Love" shows the attachment between

the donkey and the teddy bear. Overall, this set gives us the feeling of living in paradise.

 

  

 

I just got home from work. Mentally, I feel exhausted. The job's not tough, but the atmosphere gives me pressure. Doesn’t seem anyone ever use heart on others. Those with authority are look up to and those who doesn't are treated opposite. People call someone useless when they don’t meet up their standards. I don’t know how to react to that. What if I was the one being complained? Everyone makes mistake; no one is perfect. I feel that I must not reveal any error; or else I will become one of the targets. I don’t understand this. Why can’t we just enjoy what we are doing instead of putting stress on each other? I really cannot stand the business world. This will not be my future. I refuse to live this kind of life. Money means nothing if I can't do the things I enjoy. Doesn't seem anyone understand me here.

February 23, 2008

 

Now is 4:15 AM on a Saturday morning of February 23, 2008. I just woke up. Surprise I feel so awake because it has only been 5 hours of sleep. Since now that I am wide awake, I’ll just write down how I felt on my first day of work.

 

From my Taiwan trip, I felt that I have found myself. This feeling is so real that I don’t know how to explain it. I didn’t want to leave Taiwan; it was like leaving me behind. After couple days of jet lag, finally came to my first day of work. On the way to work, I felt sour inside me. I was afraid of losing myself again when around people at work. Losing that will make me feel hopeless and doubtful about my future. I can’t be myself when around other people. I hate socializing and saying things I have no interest in. People always give me weird look like how I behave is not right. I have to act a certain way so they will respect my privacy and know when to stop bothering me. I have to stay strong and defend for my own thinking, but how long will I be able to last? There are so many of them. I need to stay in there or else they will have a chance to attack.