I was in the snowstorm

Couldn’t find a way out

I saw a shadow and tried to reach for it

It went further and further away

Wished it could come back

It didn’t seemed to sense my existing

I was afraid, but had to struggle through

As I walk further down

I felt colder and colder inside and out

I was near the state of froze

Pushed myself harder and harder

Finally I see the shadow again

Now it is right beside me

But it also seems lost

How to guide each other out?

I’m desperate and near frozen

Discovered a fire pit and try to warm up

Wish I could bring it along

But It is too hot to hold on to

And I don’t have the strength

Should I sacrifice and burn myself?

Will I completely become frozen?

How much further do I have to go?

Which way will keep me alive?

I still don’t have the answer...

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I thrive to know real love and care.

I search...and search...

Misunderstood, put down, and left me hanging.

Is it not right to search for the answer?

Why judge me?

What have I ever done???

This world is so unfair!

Look at all the cold blooded animal...

They think they are right, but they know nothing!

How to encourage myself a second try?

I am afraid to be turned down and abandoned once more.

My heart is fragile and nearly shattered.

Once more, I will no longer see the light.

Just give me a simple answer!

Far

 

 

 

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Feeling Lost Happens. You Can Find Your Way Out If You Want To.

Feeling lost makes one suffer emotional and mental pain. You get this unhappy and out of sorts feeling. There's a lot of internal confusion going on.

Most times you feel disconnected from the world and people. You don't know where you're heading. You begin to wonder whether what you've been doing is worth it. You lose faith. Sometimes you don't know what's wrong or right anymore.

There are various reasons that can cause the feeling of isolation. It can happen after you face a big disappointment in your life. Not getting what you want can make you feel miserable. Lack of personal growth and progress can cause frustrations. Having to compromise your personal values and rules can be upsetting.

How do you overcome feeling lost and confused?

• Self-examination.

You have to do it. You have to look inside and ask yourself what it is that you aren't facing or accepting? You need to understand why you think, feel and act the way you do.

Write down your thoughts. Break them apart. It helps you see things clearer and make you understand. Once you do comprehend, you can then get your life back in order.

• Change your focus.

Things can go wrong or you may have been let down. The more you give your attention to it, the worst you will feel.

You may not have been directly responsible for whatever has happened. But you have control over what you want to experience next. If happiness is what you seek to achieve, then you have to think and do everything that you can to move towards it. It could mean doing something that you don't normally do.

You must keep reminding yourself that your mind holds great power. If you deliberately command and direct it, the mind will follow your orders.

• Sleep on it.

Instead of tossing and turning in bed all night worrying, try to sleep on it. Maybe you need several nights of sleeping on it to see things in a different light.

Let go off your concerns. Tell yourself that you are releasing them to the universe. Have faith that you will get some answers.

• Talk to someone and listen.

Avoid anyone who is equally feeling lost as you are. You won't benefit from the interaction. Seek someone who is involved with life.

Pay attention and listen with an open heart and mind. Sometimes a casual remark can change how you have perceived things.

• Remember your dreams and goals.

One of the reasons to have a long list of your life goals is to keep you working and moving towards them. You can't get swayed away for long and feeling lost if you have dreams to achieve. There's always something else to think about and to do. You'll accept that it as a phase and a lesson that you have to learn.

So keep your goal list so that it's easier for you to get up again after a fall. Getting back on track is something that you know you must do.

"However confused the scene of our life appears, however torn we may be who now do face that scene, it can be faced, and we can go on to be whole." - Muriel Rukeyser

When the feeling of separation pay a visit, don't drift along and allow yourself to sink deeper. Get out of the darkness by seeking for light.

The light could be the next person you talk to, a sermon, and a long walk, from reading books, seeing the suffering of others or being among nature.

 

Big boss came to company today. He wants to fire this manager because he never listen.

I feel sad for him. he has been working there for a long time. Also, he is an old man. I was asked, if I am the boss...

what will I do when my worker doesn't listen to a thing I say? I said...I can't answer that question because if

I could, I am already a business woman. That is the reason why I can never go to that field. I would be too soft

to the worker...so I choose the opposite path. :P

 

為什麼每一天總會有孤單的感覺?

是不是人生就是這樣的?

還是我天生就是一個想太多的人…

實在沒辦法去控制

每一天都需要找些事情讓自己更加忙…

那就會太累去在想

在半夜跑步…感覺自己有一點變態

開車過的人一定以為看到鬼 XD

 

今天在工作感到有點 frustrated，，但是不知道怎麼解釋這種感覺。

讓我把它放在一個 example。

比如說我最愛吃白粥。整個人生被人逼吃鮑魚。現在他們終於明白，我喜歡吃的是白粥，但就覺得必要加一些鮑魚。他們認為，加了鮑魚會有更多的味道。我不能想出一個理由拒絕和我不能生氣，因為他們只是想對我好。我也不想傷他們的心...但是加了鮑魚胃口就不同了… 感覺也不一樣…它會失去了它原本的味道。不管吃多少，我不覺得滿足。其他人認為，我不知道如何享受生活也不懂得幸福。但是我吃的時後真的笑不出口啊...

 

Why everytime I leave here I know how my future gonna go?

When I come back, I lose hope on myself.

What the hell is wrong???

What is missing in my life...?

Alright, I'll just go to sleep.

Let's see how I'll feel tomorrow.

 

 

I'm back here again...

Starting to get that same feeling.

Maybe I'll just make myself busy.

Can't stand what's circling inside in my head.

Please give me a wack!

Always have so much questions.

What the hell is wrong with me???

 

 

Why such a mess?

Always get blinded 'coz needed the support.

Went through pain and sufferings.

No one was there.

All they did was push push push.

Tried so hard without appreciation.

Why gave up on us?

Depressed! Numbed.

We swallowed the pain.

Lost feelings and emotion.

Forgot how to shed a tear.

Good memories nearly forgotten.

Can't see further, but needed the protection.

Doesn't seem right.

No one could see through.

All kinds of feelings exist in one.

How to spread it out? 

Does not work this way.

Problem is nearly invisible.

What is the way out?

 

 

Maybe I was born this way.
Why I have to see through them?
Hence, they couldn't see through me.
What is my purpose in life?
I must be here for a reason.
How do I bring myself hope?
There’s got to be more things in life than this.
How much do I worth?
What can I do to make my life more meaningful?
Will anyone remember me?
Do I really exist?

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What’s going on inside my head?

It is going back and forth.

How do I keep it going in one direction?

I am stuck in between two invisible paths.

Where is the sign to lead me?

I will find the way, but I will get lost again.

Sometime this is the reality, and sometime the other way around.

How long do I have to keep chasing?

How do I keep myself going?

How should I hold on to it?

Maybe when I wake up, I will come back.

Wait, am I already doing it?

Is this how it’s supposed to be?

Maybe I just need to accept it.

Or maybe there will never be an answer.

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